In a Memory

I know you
From somewhere
Deep in my memory
And the feelings
Tear at my heart
Reminiscent
Of a time gone by
The way you looked that night
When your eyes met mine
And the world was before us
And time stood still
Familiarity
As our eyes meet again
Your soul knows 
My every breath
My heart senses every beat
Accustomed 
To the intimate pattern 
Of your way
And the longing of my body
To you hold you again
Aches
Desperate, dangerous
To cross this unmarked
Line of past and present
Into the unknown...
The future

It was different then

A lifetime ago

She used to smile 

And laugh

Not holding 

The weight of the world

Up 

By her shoulders

Not standing on the 

Outside

Looking in

Who is that girl in the pictures?

Without a care

She didn't know what tomorrow 

Would bring

And trusted that 

The sun would always rise

And good would always prevail

But 10 years gone 

And life held other plans

She's realized that 

Even though life 

Held potential

It can all disappear in a moment

One minute in time 

Can forever 

Change 

The course of your future

And now 

This has become

Her reality

Outside the wind blows strong

The rain has turned to snow

Your flannel shirt hangs on the bedroom door

Your smell lingering 

Long after you've graced this world

What proof do I have 

That you existed? 

That you physically walked this earth?

How long do memories last? 

And what exactly are they made of?

My heart breaks with each minute that passes

My soul grieves

In despair

And my body aches to touch you

What I would give 

To hold the secrets 

That barricade the living

And the dead

To transcend the barrier

That separates this world

From the one beyond

For now

I leave your shirt

To prove

You did not exist 

Only in my mind

In the blink of an eye
Fate can turn to Destiny
Leaving a trail of memories
To be held
Like grains of sand 
Slipping through your fingers
If whispers could carry
Your voice to my heart
Unbroken, reckless
Wild, I'd fly
But chained I stand
Holding only the last remnants
Of what was once 
Ours

Thunder booms, shaking the roof
Of our turn of the century saltbox home
The sky is gray and dismal
Yet the irony of the warm lit interior
Plays with my mind
Our dreams were in this home
The hopes we had for our future
The children we would raise
Two boys and a girl
Who sit parked in front of Sponge Bob
While our lives fall down around us
Shattered are the memories
Pierced by the image of
The dark haired woman
That I saw him 
Tenderly touch
Then lean in for a hug
Future? What is that? 
I no longer know
Taking care of the children
Trying to put on a brave face
Home cooked meals traded in for frozen dinners 
I laugh at how ironic my life has truly become
He's "in love" 
Because obviously what we had was just a game
The children we had were created in the moment
Not born from love
How can he throw it all away
I wonder
My tears slide down my face
As the clouds break free 
With rain

At one time I loved you
And every which way the wind blew
I thought of you
And time went on
I became
Myself
And  realized
That
I still
Loved you

Who knew
That life can be born
From desire
And love can be
Created from
The intricate labyrinth
That binds one person to the next
And seperates strangers
From friends
And who can harbor
The reality
That fate has destined us
Holding us captive
To our hearts
Every whim
Surpassing the very essence
Of right and wrong
And leaving us
In the presence of
This moment